 
							Soul Travel

It’s 1965. My best friend Beverly lives next door. She and I are sitting on our porch playing jacks.
A girl a few years older than us walks by snapping her gum while holding a transistor radio to her ear. It’s loud enough to hear the music, Johnny Angel, How I love him … every time he says hello my heart begins to fly …
“Aren’t you two a little old to be playing jacks?” she asks.
We ignore her and she walks away.
“If someone told me a spaceship dropped me off and I’d been sent here to save humanity, I’d believe them.” I say.
“I know what you mean,” says Beverly, who reminds me of a painting with her beautiful fawn colored eyes.
“Aren’t you going into the city today to meet your boyfriend?” she asks.
His name is Paul. He’s nineteen and plays in a band. Paul lives in the Bronx and I live in Queens, so sometimes we meet in Manhattan and sit under a tree in Central Park and kiss. He told me he loves me.
“Yes, I am going into the city today. Better go get ready,” I reply.
My mother comes to the window of our downstairs apartment, a few feet away from where we’re sitting, “Want a grilled cheese sandwich and apple juice?”
“Thanks mom. I’ll be right in. See you later Bev.”
After I eat, I walk past rows of two-story brick buildings that all look the same. Then I cross the overpass of the Long Island Expressway and arrive at the bus stop.
There is no bench, so I lean against the wall to wait. The sun warms my face.
Suddenly my body feels lighter.
I see a girl leaning against a wall. That’s me! No. That’s not me. I’m me, the one looking at her. I get it. The girl at the bus stop is the form my soul has taken this lifetime.
In a blink, I look out from behind the eyes of a fourteen-year-old girl waiting for a bus. It just stopped in front of her. I mean me. It just stopped in front of me, since I am her.
I go up the bus stairs, drop the fare into the coin box, take a window seat, and stare out at the blue sky. Was I floating? What is going on?
Twenty minutes later, the bus route ends at a corner store near the subway entrance. I buy a Twix and put it in my purse for later. Then I head down the steep staircase, where I am greeted by florescent lights, white tiled walls, and the familiar sound of train wheels screeching on metal tracks.
I get on line to buy a token. “Two please. No make it three.” I’ll get one for the way back and one for the bus ride home. I push my money through the little slot on the counter, the only opening in the mini-fortress the token lady sits in.
She pushes three tokens back through the slot without raising her head. If you look up, you might see my soul. I just did. Or rather, my soul saw me. Not quite sure how that works yet. You have a soul too. Is it in there with you?
“Next,” she yells.
The train from Queens to Manhattan is only half full, so there are plenty of seats. That’s good. Don’t like when it’s crowded. People press up against me, and some of them are men. I wonder how our souls feel pressed together like that. Do souls feel? They must, mustn’t they?
Several riders read books or newspapers. A few wear headphones and hold portable tape players. Most wear the glazed facial expression every New Yorker knows that says, “I don’t care what you think of me.” Does that mean they don’t care? Or does it mean they do care and want people to think they don’t?
The train jolts forward, and the lights flicker. It doesn’t bother me. I’m used to it. Maybe I’ll eat half my Twix now and save the rest for the way home. My soul and I settle in for the forty-minute ride to Manhattan.

 
							
 
							 
							
 
							
 
							

 
