Soul Travel

Soul Travel

It’s 1965. My best friend Beverly lives next door. She and I are sitting on our porch playing jacks.

A girl a few years older than us walks by snapping her gum while holding a transistor radio to her ear. It’s loud enough to hear the music, Johnny Angel, How I love him … every time he says hello my heart begins to fly

“Aren’t you two a little old to be playing jacks?” she asks.

We ignore her and she walks away.

“If someone told me a spaceship dropped me off and I’d been sent here to save humanity, I’d believe them.” I say.

“I know what you mean,” says Beverly, who reminds me of a painting with her beautiful fawn colored eyes.

“Aren’t you going into the city today to meet your boyfriend?” she asks.

His name is Paul. He’s nineteen and plays in a band. Paul lives in the Bronx and I live in Queens, so sometimes we meet in Manhattan and sit under a tree in Central Park and kiss. He told me he loves me.

“Yes, I am going into the city today. Better go get ready,” I reply.

My mother comes to the window of our downstairs apartment, a few feet away from where we’re sitting, “Want a grilled cheese sandwich and apple juice?”

“Thanks mom. I’ll be right in. See you later Bev.”

After I eat, I walk past rows of two-story brick buildings that all look the same. Then I cross the overpass of the Long Island Expressway and arrive at the bus stop.

There is no bench, so I lean against the wall to wait. The sun warms my face.

Suddenly my body feels lighter.

I see a girl leaning against a wall. That’s me! No. That’s not me. I’m me, the one looking at her. I get it. The girl at the bus stop is the form my soul has taken this lifetime.

In a blink, I look out from behind the eyes of a fourteen-year-old girl waiting for a bus. It just stopped in front of her. I mean me. It just stopped in front of me, since I am her.

I go up the bus stairs, drop the fare into the coin box, take a window seat, and stare out at the blue sky. Was I floating? What is going on?

Twenty minutes later, the bus route ends at a corner store near the subway entrance. I buy a Twix and put it in my purse for later. Then I head down the steep staircase, where I am greeted by florescent lights, white tiled walls, and the familiar sound of train wheels screeching on metal tracks.

I get on line to buy a token. “Two please. No make it three.” I’ll get one for the way back and one for the bus ride home. I push my money through the little slot on the counter, the only opening in the mini-fortress the token lady sits in.

She pushes three tokens back through the slot without raising her head. If you look up, you might see my soul. I just did. Or rather, my soul saw me. Not quite sure how that works yet. You have a soul too. Is it in there with you?

 “Next,” she yells.

The train from Queens to Manhattan is only half full, so there are plenty of seats. That’s good. Don’t like when it’s crowded. People press up against me, and some of them are men. I wonder how our souls feel pressed together like that. Do souls feel? They must, mustn’t they?

Several riders read books or newspapers. A few wear headphones and hold portable tape players. Most wear the glazed facial expression every New Yorker knows that says, “I don’t care what you think of me.” Does that mean they don’t care? Or does it mean they do care and want people to think they don’t?

The train jolts forward, and the lights flicker. It doesn’t bother me. I’m used to it. Maybe I’ll eat half my Twix now and save the rest for the way home. My soul and I settle in for the forty-minute ride to Manhattan.

Psychic Whispers

Psychic Whispers

I am alone in my home office when I hear the words, “Contact the teacher.” An inner voice, like someone is in my head. I take a slow, deep breath.

To my left, a wall of windows faces a small lake. Loud duck squawks and birdsong filter in through an open window.

In an instant, a mental image appears of a writing class I visited in Marina Del Rey, California. When was that? Twenty-five years ago? More?

I recall the teacher. Attractive. Around ten years older than I was. A friend invited me to attend, and I was moved by the stories I heard. Students wrote from real life experiences in present tense, as if they were speaking into a microphone, narrating their lives as they lived them. It was personal. Intimate. Engaging. And the closest I’ve ever come to taking a writing class.

What was the teacher’s name? I remember he wrote a book called, Writing from Within. I’ll google it.

Found him. His name is Bernard Selling. I am looking at his website now. He’s written quite a few books since then. Think I’ll email him.

Dear Bernard, I sat in on your writing class years ago. I am an author myself now, and I recall how your classes touched me. Blessings, Kira

Hi Kira, Always happy to have had a positive impact. I’ve written three new books (two books, one workbook) updates of Writing From Within. For an experienced writer like yourself, I suggest Writing from Deeper Within. Thanks for the hello. Bernard”

I dial my friend Jacquelina.

“What’s up?” she asks.

“I was working alone when I distinctly heard the words, ‘Contact the teacher.’”

“You mean like Kevin Costner in Field of Dreams?”

“Yes. There wasn’t any sound, but I heard the words distinctly.”

“Do you know who the teacher is?”

“Bernard Selling, a writing teacher I met decades ago when I lived in Venice.”

“I have been wanting to focus more on my writing,” she says.

A day passes. I am sitting at my computer when I hear, “You’ve got to teach what he teaches!” This time the words are emphatic.

Dear Bernard, Have you ever trained others to teach your technique? My friend Jacquelina and I are both intrigued. Kira

Hi Kira, Thank you for your interest in teaching my writing method. I would be happy to mentor you and your friend through the process. Just let me know when you are ready to begin. Bernard

One month passes. A number of girlfriends express a desire to get more serious about their writing. With little effort, I organize a writing class with Bernard and women in three different time zones. We plan to meet every other Sunday by phone. My initial thought is to set it up so we can video chat. None of the women want to be on camera. I set up a conference call instead.

Fast-forward ten years. The writing class continues to meet every two weeks. Students come and go. Jacquelina and I stay with it. With Bernard’s masterful approach to authentic writing, our writing and our confidence are transformed.

I feel privileged to manage this class. Whenever we have a new student, I work with them first to introduce them to Writing from Within. It’s like planting a seed; then watering it and watching it grow.

Oh, here is an email from Bernard.

Hi Kira and Jacquelina! You have each expressed an interest in teaching my Writing from Within method of writing. The significant thing from my point of view is that my work has a chance to live on. You could teach and eventually train others to teach. Bernard

Is Bernard offering to pass the torch? That’s humbling. We can teach individually or we can teach together; we can give classes or workshops or webinars; we can teach in the states or overseas; we can train other teachers. So many possibilities!

The phone rings. I know its Jacquelina.

“Did you get the email from Bernard?” I ask.

“That is why I am calling,” she says.

I hear the smile in her voice and smile back.

Hurricane Irma

Hurricane Irma

The water began dripping through the ceiling around six a.m. The drip became a waterfall, and we lost power. I spent the next five hours emptying buckets while my mother sat holding the radio close to her so she could hear the newscaster over the static caused by the howling winds.

Halfway through the ordeal, the eye passed over. It got eerily calm as the winds abated. Then, the other side of the storm wall hit and it began all over again.

By mid-afternoon, exhausted neighbors came out to view the damage. Windows were broken, their metal frames twisted. Trees were uprooted and lying on their sides. Those that remained upright had been snapped off like toothpicks. Pieces of the roof were scattered. Air conditioners that had been mounted on the roof had been flung off. Some landed on cars.

For the next week we were in survival mode a combination of new friendships and fatigue. One generous neighbor had a propane stove. She and I made soup and went door to door with a ladle. A friend brought over a few cases of emergency rations. We distributed them to neighbors along with peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. Another family procured a barbecue and using fallen branches for firewood, we salvaged what we could from our freezers.

Finally, the Red Cross set up camp and began handing out meals and ice. But the elevators were out of order and elderly neighbors could not walk down the stairs. Suffice to say, I spent my days going up and down those stairs, delivering water, meals, ice, and whatever else I could. A few mornings I actually woke up crying, frustrated by my own limitations and concerned for the many who may have been forgotten. Towards the end of the week, the health department began going door to door. What a relief!

By the seventh day, we were grateful to get the power back on, except no repairs had been done to the roof. A group of tall firemen came by with rolls of plastic and covered the tops of our furniture. That was fortuitous because a night or two later, it rained buckets indoors and out.

We were on the top floor of a four story buidling. In every room, water poured from the seam between the top of the walls and the ceiling. My mother went to a friend’s apartment on the floor below while I wrestled with the incoming water.

A few hours later, soaked in grey water and depleted, it occurred to me that I had better check on our neighbor’s apartment. She was in Canada, and my mother was taking refuge in the flat directly below hers. When I opened the door, there was a lake in the living room. I just stood there.

Suddenly a man I’d met after the hurricane appeared. Then he vanished. Moments later he returned with a WetVac and began playfully vacuuming up gallons and gallons of water. I was in the doorway watching him when one of the neighbors walked by. “Wherever did you find him?”she asked in awe. “He’s not real, I replied.

For weeks, water continued to be a problem. The laminate wood floors lifted so we tore them up and lived with cement floors, and the walls began peeling. Fortunately, a group of storm chasers came by with fans and heaters to abate mold problems. Florida is hot and humid so that was a huge blessing.

Throughout it all, my mother lived in gratitude. She never once focused on what was wrong, only on what was right.

One morning a neighbor told me he was leaving and would return in a few days. When I saw him again, I asked if he had decided not to go. He informed me that four days had passed. You know those invisible lines between days, indicating Monday is Monday and Tuesday is Tuesday? I lost the lines. The sun rose and set, but I could no longer grab hold of any sense of division.

I had an injury and went to visit a lovely retired nurse. After she attended to me, we sat and visited. She said that since I’d come into her home, a ring of angels had been flying around her face. Personally, I think they arrived before I did.